Today sadly,(to my surprise) was the last day of the play, and I left feeling depressed and disappointed, Because the show was over and no one was very nice to me today. I guess we are all jerks at heart no matter what our facades say.
And to get more to the point, how we lie all of the time. we lie about how we are always feeling, our answer always seems to be I'm fine, when clearly, we are awful. these things are what make us all "strong" when truly, we are at our weakest, when all we can think about is our feelings being tucked away.
Our lives are a constant battle to hack down one anothers self esteem. only when we have none left, the axes of our words and actions hack us into the ground, leaving mutilated shreds of people. i alone feel like an observer, watching as these things happen and wondering how some people cannot pick up the cues that caution against intruding. there is no longer a cue for "leave me alone" there is only get away from me.
Powerful Lydia! Good observations and full of real feeling. "I'm fine" is such a non-answer these days and mostly a polite way of saying "Don't talk to me." Great job in the play and I hope you're proud of the special thing it was.
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